Desire is such an important part of my life, especially since sobriety. Before then I had absolutely no idea what I wanted and I was just floating in the wind. I couldn't feel for long enough to even get a glimpse. And ironically when I could finally feel, it felt too intense and I immediately shut it down. Desire felt like a dirty word and my body would freeze at the first sign of intensity (even the positive kind).
Now that I have the capacity to hold my desires and the courage to follow them, I've noticed that the more I allow myself to follow my desires, the more the world opens up for me and meets my needs. There's some sort of magic that happens when we declare those desires and take the first step towards claiming them!
What a lovely reflection, Kaitlyn. This feels like a great capsule of the transition from drinking to sobriety and all the ebbs, flows, and feels that come with it. “Capacity to hold desire and courage to follow them” will stay with me. Thanks for reading.
Desire is such an important part of my life, especially since sobriety. Before then I had absolutely no idea what I wanted and I was just floating in the wind. I couldn't feel for long enough to even get a glimpse. And ironically when I could finally feel, it felt too intense and I immediately shut it down. Desire felt like a dirty word and my body would freeze at the first sign of intensity (even the positive kind).
Now that I have the capacity to hold my desires and the courage to follow them, I've noticed that the more I allow myself to follow my desires, the more the world opens up for me and meets my needs. There's some sort of magic that happens when we declare those desires and take the first step towards claiming them!
What a lovely reflection, Kaitlyn. This feels like a great capsule of the transition from drinking to sobriety and all the ebbs, flows, and feels that come with it. “Capacity to hold desire and courage to follow them” will stay with me. Thanks for reading.